Thursday, 26 July 2012


There have been many times in my life when I felt LOST.

The most recent occasion was a few months after the birth of my daughter (she was born in May 2009).  I was over joyed with the birth of my sweet little girl, and I was slowly getting the hang of taking care of a newborn. In other words we (my little family and I) had found our rhythm, or routine and was making our way in the world.

Where I felt lost was with who "I AM". It was so clear to who I was before Stella arrived. I was a passionate yogini, spreading the wisdom of yoga to others in a local yoga studio. I was strong and playful. I was compassionate and loving. I WAS ME!

Stella & I the day after she was born
So after a few weeks of sadness and confusion, I started to think of ways I could re-invent myself. So I cut my hair, SHORT! A month later I dyed it brown, which I hated and cried every time I looked in the mirror for a few weeks, till I called and got highlights put back in. I kept doing my yoga, slowly but I felt weak and I couldn't relate to the body I had now, after giving birth. Again, I was lost.
Short haircut, no pic of brown hair, b/c I hated it so much!
I was searching everywhere for the answer.

I wish I could say that I found myself months later, however that's not the truth. The truth is that it took me a year. Yeah, a YEAR! But along the journey I remembered who I am in the most profound way.

It had nothing to do with the way I looked, or the way I taught yoga. It had nothing to do with how much money I had or what I wore. It had nothing to do with my success or failures. It had everything to do with how I received and gave LOVE.

For me it was more about the receiving of love, as I am much better at giving than receiving. I realised this by coming back to journaling. Now, I didn't have a lot of time on my hands but I committed myself to writing 3 things I was grateful for EVERY DAY!

I got to see within every day how many moments of bliss I experienced and felt gratitude for. I got to see how good life is. I got to see how much LOVE I received a day.

What are 3 things your grateful for today?

xo Lauren

Thursday, 19 July 2012


It is love that brings happiness to people. 
It is love that gives joy to happiness. 
My mother didn't give birth to me, that love did. 
A hundred blessings and praises to that love.
-- Rumi 

We are all born from love. We all deserve and desire love. I am inspired daily by my kids and how they love. When kids love someone, they don't care what that person looks like, what they wear, what hairstyle they have or what they will get from giving their love. They just love. And they will tell you. Without hesitation, without attachment or regret, they just love. 

I believe we are all born into this world from love and with a purpose. I believe under it all we are all the same and we are all capable of changing the world into a better place just by loving. It is easy to love your kids, your parents, your spouse but the challenge is finding love for people we don't understand or people we are afraid to understand. I also think there is a challenge in sharing love with those we see everyday. At dinner tonight my kids were singing a song about how they loved everyone and everything in the whole world. I get it. As we get older we are taught to love a certain way or possibly not quite as freely as the opera I was sung tonight but why not go back to that feeling of joy in love that we had when we were kids. We just loved. To love and be loved, what else is there? May you all find the joy in love today.    

With Love,

Wednesday, 11 July 2012

Are You ON or OFF?

In January of this year, I was teaching 12 yoga classes a week, part responsible for an impromptu local yoga studio, working with Carli-Jean to get to the place we wanted it (which is a full time job alone) and of course taking care of my household wife, mom, woman duties. Let's just say I was overwhelmingly busy. (I still kind of am).

This isn't even what really contributed to my anxiety. It was the fact that I couldn't turn "OFF". I would lie in bed at night streaming my brain for marketing ideas, or yoga sequences. I would be bathing Stella and putting laundry away, while thinking about a private client of mine.

I was always running at high speed & doing too many things at once!

I sit here today aware that this pattern in my life doesn't serve me.

So this week, I'm making a commitment to myself to change that. Or at least a commitment to start the process of noticing when I fall into this habit. Yoga has taught me that it all starts with awareness, because once I KNOW, than I can see where my choices lie.

Today I chose to play with my daughter skillfully. To be in the moment with her while we play with her stuffies, and then blow bubbles in the backyard. Today I chose to be present with my husband when he's explaining his day, and later when I move in my yoga practice. Today I see that the most important choice I have is to BE in the moment, even when I'm "OFF" lying on my mat in Savasana (corpse pose, final relaxation!).

Today I see that the freedom I desire in my life starts when I allow myself to fully be "ON", when I'm supposed to be "ON", and totally "OFF" when it's time to be "OFF".

Love, Lauren

Wednesday, 4 July 2012


We are awake. We are free. We are full of possibilities. We make choices. We choose our clothes, our breakfast and the way we will behave today. We choose how we will talk to people and how we will be talked to. We can move, we can sing and we can dance. We can laugh. We can have moments of silence or we can scream. Today is amazing. We have today to be the person we want to be. We have today to do cartwheels if we choose. Today is all ours. So enjoy today. Fully. Have fun, learn, share, forgive, smile and most of all love.